Today would have been your eighth birthday. Sometimes it is hard to believe that it has been eight years since you came into our world, and left our world. There isn’t a day that goes by that you are not thought of. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t realize the strength that you brought to me.
I recently saw an interview with Spiritual Teacher, Gary Zukav. He was speaking to a couple who had a set of twins. One of them died shortly after birth. His words spoke to me. He stated that “If you look at the baby as a personality who lived for a few days then encountered a tragic circumstance and died, then you are looking at it from the point of view of the personality. But if you look at this as a soul life and that all of us on earth that leave earth, leave when it chooses then you will have a different perspective.”
Over the years, I have realized that you were brought to us to teach us lessons. Each one of us have learned the lessons that we need to, from you and we continue to as long as we are open to it. He continued to say, “If you can look at the loss from this perspective, you will be able to see the gifts that this soul has offered to you during its short stay on the earth. You will reach a point that you are grateful that this soul chose to be with you for however short a time.” I thought that was so true. Although, I miss who you might have been. I have accepted what you were meant to teach me.
He continued, “If you cannot see this, you will live your life in anguish thinking of a tragedy that has occurred. You will see events and think of ‘what ifs’. If you look at the soul as voluntarily entering the earth school and voluntarily leaving it in order to be with you and to offer gifts then you will begin the process of appreciating and to be grateful for the power of the interaction that you had with the soul, and you will be able to receive the gifts that the soul came to this earth to give you. If you do not you will continually be turning away from those gifts. You will be denying the very wealth of wisdom and compassion that was offered to you by this soul.”
I was completely engrossed and wrote down every word that he said, because someone else was saying what it took me years to realize. I spent the first few years after you left, focusing on the “what ifs” and asking ”why?” Once I realized the “why?”, I was more at peace. You had a purpose and a mission. Your short time on this earth was all that it took for you to do the work you were intended to do. It has taken my years to accept this and there are times I still want to play with my niece, but I appreciate the gifts that you have given me.
You have taught me what is important:
I rarely get upset sitting in traffic or waiting in long lines.
I held an angel in my arms.
I have learned to focus on the positive and not the negative.
My niece died, but I held an angel in my arms.
You were so much more than a 3 lb 4 oz baby girl, you were an infinite soul…..
So today on what would have been your eighth birthday, I want to thank you for the gifts that you have given to me for the past eight years. I love you.